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Today has been a good day...
not great because of the stress but it was good...
right whilst waiting for my chili to simmer to perfection ( kidney beans and tomatoes with garlic...wow...i;m really eating healthy )
anyway.... here's my day....the last day of lectures ( we have one last wards tml) before we break for......STUDY WEEK and then ...................... EXAMS!!!!
Right so this morning after our final lecture on pleural disease we had wards.
It was history taking this morning, and we are currently based at orthopaedics...
which I have to state for the record does the BEST tutorials so far...competent, interesting and funny registrar ( irish bloke ...it's in their blood )
yup, so off me and my partner went off to clerk Mrs H.H
H.H , 85y, Female, been in hospital for 3 weeks
broke her right neck of femur on a trivial fall ( sorry can't go into details )
yup...so she's a really sweet old lady, but kinda deaf, and we thought she was all hale and hearty
though just maybe a bit lacking on the memory side, so we didn't get much out of her
and we were just about to leave to reconvene to present our cases, when lo an behold
the curtains are drawn and in comes this huge bloke of a consultant
Well, he comes in and says " Well, a rather interesting case we have here , eh"
and we were like, '''er....yeah" ( but come on we were thinking....old woman, broken NOF fracture, dime a dozen in this ministry of funny walks)
and then we just presented our patient to him,
and he was like " looks like she hasn't been telling u much, eh "
and we were " yeah, she can't remember wat drugs she's been taking"
And then, he proceeded to give us our OWN PRIVATE TUTORIAL on pathological fractures, how to diagnose them, common problems with bed rest,
drug treatment, and the mechanism on how bisphosphonates work, even down to little mini osteoclastic movements. yup and he talked about her condition ( myeloma if anyone's wondering) and epidemiology and stuff.
It was great! (yes, medical student hunger for such personal attention and additional teaching, it's in our blood)
And he was so nice about it, and encouraging, and patient.
Yup, turns out later he was a consultant haematologist not a surgeon as we thought.
haha...our registrar refered to him as Denis the menace with his big physique and shock of curly red hair.
Thanks for the tutorial Dr. H. W! Saved us for the presentation!
I have to share this with you guys .....
" What do they say about orthopaedic surgeons?"
" As strong as an OX and JUST about twice as smart."
Told, during one of our clinical lectures by an orthopaedic surgeon who apparently did the queen mother's ( or was it the queen's) hip replacement.
haha...ortho surgeons are just so funny....informal, non-aloof pple, who make wards fun!
Cheers to them!
Right so after wards, we had lunch and then a Pharmacology problem solving session
with Dr. D and Dr. Mc Clay ( yup Mr How many ways can u kill ur patient). And these 2 were like a tag team....slaggin each other off, playing off each other, smart remarks and being game to havin the piss taken out of them by us. they were great!
It was good, learnt alot, had fun, didn't get the roving microphone (...phew)
even got to hear an authentic BOVINE cough....courtesy of one of my colleagues
haha...it was so sudden that even Dr. D, the consultant respiratory physician was thrown offguard... hahahaa......
you know,
to all you doctors and surgeons who take the time off to come lecture us, and take us on wards
and do your utmost best to make it a fun and enriching experience,
where we get to learn invaluable stuff from experiences, and not having our dignity torn and our confidence shredded to pieces whenever we give really STUPID answers, by your magnanimity in saying things like " well, yes........SEVERE liver cirrhosis might be a cause of haemoptysis ( coughing up blood ) .... BUT.....in this case of an elderly gentleman with increasing breathlessness and pleuritc pain....that is an answer I wouldn't be putting down on my exam sheet."
Sweet.....
No wonder they emphasis so much on that STUPID COMMUNICATION SKILLS COURSE...
Righto....can smell my chilli coming through the kitchen door....
Cheers!
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
it's been an interesting, traumatic and stressful week thus far....and a great one too...
...... better put, it's been a schizophrenic week...
Interesting and traumatic....
Had the video recording session for the STUPID medical interviewing and communication skills course....
Man....I just DO NOT FILM WELL...
I looked as though I was about to beat the shit out of the patient.
And I was fidgety,
and ....man......
THIS SUCKS!
Well...yeah I suppose I got the questions right but....STILLL....I LOOKED WEIRD!!!!
And guess wat....we get to film again next year, this time for a full consultation....
Oh JOy.....
( For the record, I would like to state that I DO NOT behave as neurotically when I'm interviewing and clerking patients on the ward....that's because THEY ARE REAL!!! not some fake ass actor.... )
Stressful.....
Exams in about 1.5 weeks time....
Still struggling to go through everything the first time....
Does this not SPELL IT CLEARLY TO YOU.....?
Great......
GOING TO TORONTO THIS EASTER TO VISIT ZHU!!!!
YIPPEEE!
Tickets booked, liasons made, parental consent finally gotten!
ALRIGHT!!!
Now....all I need to do is pass these exams.....
Menu for tonight's dinner....
grilled chicken and turkey burger with stirfried pasta in garlic sauce
and a side of potato wedges
Desert : American cheesecake muller's corner ( a type of yoghurt )
cheers!
Friday, January 20, 2006
tagged by zhu...
8 Aspects of my ideal partner...
1) Respects me
2) Understands me
3) Intersting and has a sense of humour ( if i wanted to talk to a block of wood, I'd go hug a tree)
4) Intelligent and Witty
5) Must be equally clever or comfortably smarter than me
( dun wanna keep having to explain things all the time, and face it, who wants to go out with a total retard?! Comfortably smarter? I don't want a prick, snob or shithead... so just tat tinge bit smarter will be fine )
6) Has a respectable decently well paid job ( or if undergraduate, predictable aforesaid good future)
7) Loyal, trustworthy and honest ( they come as a definite trio! )
8) Presentable looking ( hey! I'm not even asking for good looking, just presentable looking to society and parents! )
well...it's a realistic world we live in, but nobody said that dreaming is illegal...
I won't eveen bother to tag anyone, because unlike zhu i have horrible frens (except for xinhui) who didn't even respond to the previous tagging game....
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Just completed my first day after my B-day as an adult!
WHOOPEE.....!
Actually I don't feel that much different but still....oh NO!!!! ....
I see a crease....oh NOOOOOO!
A wrinkle.....
I'm AGING!!!
yup anyway, just a quick after dinner entry.
Yesterday, we went to the bobbin (our local pub) for dinner and drinks to celebrate.
hehe...yes...second celebration you should say...
haha...but no it wasn't as havoc as the previous one...
I had a spicy chicken burger with all the trappings of onion rings and chips.
yup....the traditional meal you have as u progress the scottish way towards obesity and
coronary heart disease...but oh well....u only live once.
and yes...if u were wondering....I had only ONE drink
my usual : triple vodka with lemonade.
Anyways...yup...it was a nice enough night with close frens
me, noura, dana, thomas, and keith... ( yes, we are back on friend status terms with keithy....hehe...our comradeship went rough just before the christmas hols when he, thomas and peter STOLE...the last quarter of my bottle of vodka when they came over for board games night....but that's another story. Moral of the story: Do NOT touch my vodka without my permission..otherwise....Dana will come down hard on you because what kinda of world would it be if your OWn vodka can't be safe in your own home....it's a matter of PRINCIPLE...
Cheers mate...
yup...so we were chatting and having fun, then we decided to play the little quiz machines that they have in the bobbin.
u put 5op in and then u choose to play one of the many quiz games they have available such as ClUEDO, monopoly, hangman, bulls eye, Who wants to be a millionaire etc.
And for each game there's a jackpot of say 10 or 20 pounds, or u get some cash if u reach a certain level....
Yup...so messed around spent quite a few 50ps and then decided tat we were much better at CLUEDO...so after losing for quite a bit,
we finally hit jackpot!
10 whole pounds!!!!
( yes...and it's a profit! We won back our capital and a bit! WHOOHOO!!)
yup...and since it was my birthday, I had 10 happy pounds stuffed into my hands!
Thanks guys! YOu're the best!
Love ya guys! ( and it's not because of the pocket money~! :P )
Yup, so after that we headed back to noura's flat, which is just opposite me and dana's and watched ER.....
it's a new season apparently...so i'm not going to say much abt it...
though the ending of that episode really made me see red and became a topic of controversial debate....
anyways....then we decided to watch a ......i'm ashamed to say this..... a Chick Flick...
yup, the poor lads who sat through it....haha.... DON'T SAY U DIDN'T ENJOY IT!!!
yup....those two had their eyes glued to the screen, seeing 3 lanky, svelte lassies prance
to and fro across the screen....
and singing " your penis is too big to fit in ...... ( go read ur anatomy!) "
Keith even came out of it singing " How do i live without you..."
Scary ain't it how these things affect u...
BTW, the film was called '' The Sweetest Thing"
any takers?
Well....it was a night of mindless fun!
And it was great!
and now....
I'm 21
I'm growing older
but I don't think wiser....
I have important exemption exams coming up in 3 weeks time...
And I'm still not in it heart and soul....
Oh well....Happy Birthday to ME!!!
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Well... duing the last 10 minutes of my morning break I'm going to fill in this entry...
Friday was such a funny day....
It was such a hilarious day, that i don't REALLY feel the least bit guilty that I didn study one bit...
Yup, so 1st first funny incident:
during wards in the morning, we were at A&E awaiting our tutorial on
"Revision of lower limb examination"
yup so we were waiting around, well wat do u expect? It's A&E. There are pple bleeding out there having fingers smashed by gas barrels, having heart attacks, who cares about the gangly bunch of 2nd years who will probably be looking after similar sorta pple 3 years down the road?
Anyway, yeah...so our tutor turned up 15 minutes before the class was about to end and flung a gown ( yes, one of those indecent tie stringy things tat aim at protecting ur modesty in the leastest bit) at Graeme who was the unfortunate guy sitting closest to the door.
"What's your name?"
"Graeme"
"There's a changing room just down the hall, go change"
hehehehe......
yup, so off goes young graeme, and returns after 20 minutes in the new getup of the season:
Hospital gown put on the wrong way round (@ the slit that's supposed at the back was running all the way down his front)
thankfully, the brains that put him in medical school made him put a belt around his waist to save the rampant spread of conjunctivitis that would have definitely spread in our group if he hadn't.
Tutor arrives, (yes by this time, we are already running into the walkin time that we are alloted to get from wards to lecture theatre) and tells graeme what we told him when he first entered
"you've got it the wrong way round son, but there's no time for u to change, go up to the front"
and then......
As grame made his short walk of shame to the front, the tutor PINCHED HIS TOOSH!!!!
heheheehehehehhheehee.....poor graeme.
And then he was made to lie on the floor, and since it was lower limb examination, his gown was lifted all the way up to expose his prime steak (not...)
and as we were going through the Look, FEEL, phase of examination, it was kinda evident to me that the tutor was obviously treating graeme like a admission of hip fracture garden's 4 (just a grading system)
yes...he was tender in stroking, and feeling and palpatin...
oh well....
hehe......not gonna pass any judgement here.
Right so the day went on, went home after 4 lectures on upper and lower respiratory tract infection which really made me want to cry and call it quits.
So went home, went round to watch some friends at noura's and then had dinner.
At 8, me, dana, and noura set off for Laura's.
We were visitng her that night since, she was always coming over to ours.
Haha...it was kinda long walk, but thankfully the wind had mercifully let up.
Laura has got a nice quaint flat near bedford road.
and she's got LOTSA cute toys and playthings in her flat.
Well...I must say that the toy I really enjoyed was this Tigger (winnie the pooh's neurotic tiger fren...ring any bells?)
Yup, it's not just any old tigger, it CAN ACTUALLY TUMBLE AND DO SOMERSAULTS!!!
yup, press it's nose and it starts to sing and tumble around and talk nonsense, sometimes it even falls asleep mid tumble.
And it's just so funny, man...if i had one of those i would be entertained for hours....yah i noe that's kinda pathetic but it's cute and stupid!!
yeah...and sometimes, it never stops, which earns its place in the rubbish basket, where it continues to neurotically (attempt to) tumble and say it's taunting phrases of " (*tigger laugh*) u thought i was finished didn you? Well...here we go again"
yup, then they brought out this bottle of mexican tequila.
(N.B I'm off alcohol for the month after wat happened on my birthday bash...hepatic recovery!)
and i'm talking authentic mexican tequila....with BIG FAT WORM swirling around at the base of the bottle.
......GROSS
But Noura, just started downing it...all 3 quarters of a 700ml bottle of TEQUILA.
(even I don't touch that foul stuff...unleess i'm feeling adventurous)
needleess to say, she came to the end and the worm slipped into her cup...
but by then she was all drunk but somehow managed to come up with the explanation of her being vegetarian and not being able to eat the worm because it was meat....
Honey... the worms been in there was ages...it's insides have been dissolved into the TEQUILA that u just downed and the thing that's in your cup is just an EMPTY HUSK FILLED WITH TEQUILA.
BAkaaaaaa..............
yeah...but then keith who was with us ( and is the first person i noe who has screwed his liver at 19 but that's another story) picked up the glass and ATE (@ CHEWED, MUNCHED, SWALLOWED) the FAT, SUCCULENT, WHITE WORM.....
yup, so after tat whole incident, we had another FUN task on getting noura who was dead drunk back home.
yup...so according to her principles we had to walk home...
yup, so we walked.
At least we walked...She skipped, ran and stumbled in a ZIG ZAG FASHION all the way back and then she decided to run into a cul de sac filled with pot holes...
and yes...after me an keith had pulled her off an iron gate she was attempting to climb, she slipped and twisted her ankle when she tripped out of a pot hole.
yup...so she was piggybacked by thomas, air lifted by the two boys back home.
.....Biiiiitchhh......
yup....so put her to bed with this MASSIVELY swollen ankle.
After the whole drama, dana and tom went to bed whilst me and keith stayed up yakking
over the hot pot of tea that i had made but no one cared to drink....Fuckrs...
yeah...keith is such a stupid boy.
he was telling me all about his love exploits and more often then not failed exploits.
haha...along with a detailed account of what happened last year, when kate and noura wrote all over his body when he was drunk.
yup...dun noe if u guys remember the story of the irish lad who got locked out of his own room and was found by the porters dancing up and down his flat corridor with his boxers on his head and everything else pretty much in the buff with writing all over his body including a big inscription of '' I love little boys"
Ring any bells?
yeah...so yak yak yak....4am I got bored, went for a shower and went to bed.
That was the end of my FUnnY day.....ehheheheeh
Jaa....
Monday, January 09, 2006
tagged by zhu,
Rules of the game:1. Post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED!" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.
1. I get a very bad case of the nerves when i'm made to interview patients or 'pretend' patients in front of a bunch of pple. I start blubbering, making a total ass out of myself and along with that a very bad case of the giggles and the fidgets. i hate communication skills course!
2. Last year during our neurology block we were told of a possible hypothesis on why we dream : One reason we dream is to rearrange (sorta like refragmenting our comp) the bits of information and memories that we have. to sort through them and discard watever is redundant. Yeah...I think that's kinda true for my dreams, I often dream of certain pple or events from the past...so...well I guess those bits of my memory are going down the drain to make way for stuff on haemarrhoids, valvular hear disease, tubercolosis, schistosomiasis and the likes...cheers.
3. I like looking after or more like tending to my little torrent download windows. What do i mean? well, if i have a couple of downloads on the go, every 5-10mins I will flit my cursor over it to check the speeds, see if it's still alive and whether it's going at a reasonale pace, if not....I shut it down and restart the torrent again....I'm obsessive....Now I can even gauge the average speed a download should be going at from the number of seeds and peers i'm hooked up to.
4. I HATE OILY FRIED SMELLS! Yes....I HATE them.... That's one of the reasons why my room is stocked with air fresheners in both block and spray form ( one for slow release the other for immediate alleviation). I especially HATE it when the oily smell gets stuck onto my clothes, and worst of all.....my LAUNDRY....coz the only place in my flat to dry my laundry is in the kitchen. Well...to solve tat problem comes another wide variety of perfumes, and scents.
5. Do I strike u guys as a caring sorta person? I dunno, but somehow I seem to attract a whole load of emotional banter and emotional offload from the pple I know, strangers and the likes. Why? I dunno...Sigh...it's not that i mind or anything, but it's weird when a stranger whom your walking to some destination in the hospital tells u on the short trip from the entrance to ward 45 about how their parents died in some terrible way, how many miscarriages they've had, how their brother died, about the war.....I've heard quite a bit. Well, actually it's kinda nice to think that pple actually trust me with such personal stuff. Dana (my flatmate) thinks it's because I'm not the kind of person u come crying to but u can come to me and go 'BLAh' and i'll just listen and my impression of u won't differ at the end of the session. Well...I suppose that could be it.
Lucky pple to be tagged : Megha, Genevieve, Xinhui, Jianyang, Becky
The wind is BLOWING, HOWLING, SCREAMING,
the WHOLE DAY!!!
Welcome to the first day of term....
Sunday, January 08, 2006
Your Element is Wood 
Your energy: generative
Your season: spring
Like a tree, you are always growing and changing.And while your life is dynamic, you are firmly grounded.You have high morals and great confidence in yourself and others.You have a wide set of interests, and you make for intersting company.What Element Are You?You Are Sophisticated Sexy 
You're a classy woman, and you carry yourself with grace.
Most men are in awe of you, and even a bit intimidated by you.
You always make sure you're looking great, from head to toe.
And your charm and wit gets you on the good side of everyone you meet.Your Aura is Red 
Your Personality: Self-confident and stunning, you live in the now! You love life and experience all it has to offer.
You in Love: You're a bit private and have trouble opening up. You need a secure guy who can deal with your independence.
Your Career: Your ideal job gives you a ton of control and concrete results. Consider being a chef, surgeon, or architect.You Belong in Paris 
Stylish and a little sassy, you were meant for Paris.
The art, the fashion, the wine, the men!
Whether you're enjoying the cafe life or a beautiful park...
You'll love living in the most chic place on earth.Your Inner Blood Type is Type A 
You seem cool and collected, though a bit shy.
You are highly driven and a perfectionist, but that's a side you keep to yourself.
Creative and artistic, you are a very unique person who doesn't quite fit in.
People accept you more than you realize, seeing you as trustworthy and loyal.
You are most compatible with: A and AB
Famous Type A's: Britney Spears and HilterYour Power Color Is Teal 
At Your Highest:
You feel accomplished and optimistic about the future.
At Your Lowest:
You feel in a slump and lack creativity.
In Love:
You tend to be many people's ideal partner.
How You're Attractive:
You make people feel confident and accepted.
Your Eternal Question:
"What Impression Am I Giving?"
Wat do you get when u mix more then 10 toxic cocktails, a triple vodka lemonade, a jaggermeister, and a shot consisting of absinthe (abstinence), kahlua, whisky and vodka?
Well...u get one sick but very happy chick! ( along with a high risk of alcoholic cirrhosis and acute liver failure...see i have been revising)
Last night, in view that my birthday falls right smack on the 1st day of exams for the normal population (my exams arent till the 7th of Feb) we had my birthday celebration yesterday.
So we had dinner at Bistro Verde, this cute, quaint little restaurant on the Green ( the old main street of Aberdeen).
Invitees were: Dana, Noura, Thomas (Tom), Laura, Grant, Shuwen, Peixin and Xuhan.
So it was a nice group of 9, all close frens and aquaintances. The menu wasn't exceptionally good, but the food was good, though the 2 lads who had ordered the tuna steak were kinda regretting it as the tuna tasted as though it was a few months overdue and still travelling along the high seas to near fulminancy.
But it was great, the bread baskets were great, the bread was freshly baked and stuffed with nuts and oats, i had a lemon sore fillet thingy stuffed with crayfish and salmon, and I traded half of this with Laura who was having a salmon steak thingy....haha...share and enjoy ne.
We had a bottle of red and a bottle of very nice new zealand white wine.
so after dinner, peixin and xuhan took off and the rest of us went to the Basement.
The Basement is the place to go if u want to get the best cocktails and shooters.
So off we went there, and then being the birthday girl they started buyin me cocktails and drinks and the whole lot which was grand and i swallowed them like a trooper i must say.
yah...for those who know me, it takes alot of alcohol before I begin to feel even the least bit tipsy, and i'm talking like the equivalent of 3 triple vodka lemonades and a tequila lemonade.
YEah...so I was fine even after like 10 + cocktails ( They were really cool, like lynchburg lemonade, bounty hunter, giant grasshopper, T.V.R, Screaming Orgasm, Bullfrog....blahblahblah)
And then just as the place was closing, noura decided that we should have SHOTs....
Yup, and she got us jaggermeister ( i dun even know wat's in it) IT tasted foul, then shuwen already all high and happy after 2 cocktails went up on the pool table and DANCED...and noura decided it was good to do a copy and up she went as well but she went up on the table with an overhanging lamp and well naturally banged right into it! HILARIOUS!
Then shuwen went to the bar and ordered us another round of shots... this process was in itself funny, she was already so drunk that when she found the menu for shooters at the end of the bar she came running towards me squealing and laughing as though she had just won a gold medal in the olympics, and she proceed to lean over to the barkeep and ask him to give her 5 of the most alcoholic shots in the house.....Man.....
Abstinence makes the heart grow fonder....and it burns ur gullet, ur tongue and ur brain gets fried as well....
yup...i dun noe wat that shot contains but absinthe is definitely in there...the green evil glow...
kids do not try this ever.....
Then all hail and happy, we left the basement and proceeded to the Priory, which is the club in a church ( yup, you'll find lotsa these places around). Hehe...as we were walking from the Basement, we were sharing with each other wat glasses and cups we had nicked from the place.
Shotglasses, wine glasses, beer glasses the likes....hehehe....
Ok...so u see, I DON'T DANCE at clubs...never have....but somehow by the time we reached that place we were so far gone, I was dragged to the dance floor, and somehow I think I danced...
but after about half an hour on the dance floor, I was just like ''' ooh...look at the pretty lights going round and round...." and Dana had to pull me to the table where I just collapsed.
They attempted to stuff water down into my gut but that made it worst (or actually better) coz...well...let's just say, the Priory is now well marked with my cocktail...hehe
yup, so the night ended with me being brought home by Tom ( Dana's BF) in a cab, whilst Dana went back in to save the other 2 delinquents ( Shuwen and Noura) and arrived back in a cab with Noura....
and so we were all safe and sound and very happy!
HAPPY 21st to ME! ( a week from monday but still....)
Thanks guys for making it this great!
Saturday, January 07, 2006
http://ahyesmedschool.blogspot.com/2005/06/oh-places-youll-go.html
It's magnificent!
It's unbelieveable!
It's the truth!
Although this guy may be in an american medical school!
I am amazed that his accounts are kinda reflected in my daily life...
even down to the weirdos that exist in my course....
Question boy, attract attention entourage, sleepers....
Man! They exist everywhere!!!!
Someone call in the exterminators!
Enjoy!
Friday, January 06, 2006
You are "Face with Glasses"
Your Eyes Should Be Brown 
Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heartYour Personality Profile 
You are dependable, popular, and observant.
Deep and thoughtful, you are prone to moodiness.
In fact, your emotions tend to influence everything you do.
You are unique, creative, and expressive.
You don't mind waving your freak flag every once and a while.
And lucky for you, most people find your weird ways charming!Your Personality Is
You are sensible, down to earth, and goal oriented.
Bottom line, you are good at playing by the rules.
You tend to be dominant - and you are a natural leader.
You are interested in rules and order. Morals are important to you.
A hard worker, you give your all at whatever you do.
You're very serious, and people often tell you to lighten up.
In love, you tend to take things carefully and slowly.
At work, you are suited to almost any career - but you excel in leadership positions.
With others, you tend to be polite and formal.
As far as looks go, you are traditionally attractive. You take good care of yourself.
On weekends, you tend to like to do organized activities. In fact, you often organize them!Your Animal Personality 
Your Power Animal: Eagle
Animal You Were in a Past Life: Whale
You are active, a challenger, and optimistic.
Hard-working, you are always working towards a set goal.You Are Changing Leaves 
You Are a Chocolate Martini 
You're an elegant drunk, who only likes the best bars and the most expensive drinks.
A bit of a cheapskate, you're likely to mooch ten dollar drinks off both friends and strangers.
You should never: Drink and dash. You're gonna get caught leaving someone with the tab!
Your ideal party: A posh celebrity party you crash, with an open bar.
Your drinking soulmates: those with a Classic Martini personality
Your drinking rivals: those with a Blueberry Martini personalityYour Japanese Name Is... 
Your Birthdate: January 16 
You're incredibly introverted and introspective. You live inside your head.
You spend a lot of alone time meditating and thinking.
People see you as withdrawn, and at times they are right.
You are caring and deep, but it may be difficult for you to show this side of yourself.
Your strength: Your original approach to thinking
Your weakness: You tend to shy away from others
Your power color: Pale blue
Your power symbol: Wavy line
Your power month: JulyHow You Life Your Life 
You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You tend to avoid confrontation and stay away from sticky situations.
You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.You Are Internal - Realist - Powerful
You feel your life is controlled internally.
If you want something, you make it happen.
You don't wait around for things to go your way.
You value your independence and don't like others to have control.
You are a realist when it comes to luck.
You don't attribute everything to luck, but you do know some things are random.
You don't beat yourself up when bad things happen to you...
But you do your best to try to make your own luck.
When it comes to who's in charge, it's you.
Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler.
You don't care much about what others think.
But they better care what you think!Slow and Steady 
Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy.
They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder.
It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment.
They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.Your Inner Child Is Surprised 
You see many things through the eyes of a child.
Meaning, you're rarely cynical or jaded.
You cherish all of the details in life.
Easily fascinated, you enjoy experiencing new things.You Have a Melancholic Temperament 
Introspective and reflective, you think about everything and anything.
You are a soft-hearted daydreamer. You long for your ideal life.
You love silence and solitude. Everyday life is usually too chaotic for you.
Given enough time alone, it's easy for you to find inner peace.
You tend to be spiritual, having found your own meaning of life.
Wise and patient, you can help people through difficult times.
At your worst, you brood and sulk. Your negative thoughts can trap you.
You are reserved and withdrawn. This makes it hard to connect to others.
You tend to over think small things, making decisions difficult.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
can't believe my first entry for the year has to be about this but...
Out of respect for pple who have attempted suicide and who have actually went through and succeeded....
If you decide to do yourself in,
and have taken 'some pills' and alcohol
and have cut your wrist as well...
Don't go telling your friends, especially pple who aren't even that close to you...
Why?
Because
A) Don't go disturbing someone's concious and frame of mind, especially when you know that they aren't that close to you.
B) Don't just call a person whom you know will actually try to activate a seek and rescue team
c) Most importantly, if you did that just to gain attention.... u really should be dead.
I say this because I hate attention seekers who attempt suicide when their bored and not in the limelight for just one night and decide it would do their ego great to do stupid things like this.
Most importantly, I think this sort of behaviour is insulting to those who had pride enough to decide for themselves what to do with their life and went ahead with their decision.