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Well at the end of a really busy and stressful and mad and funny and totally whacko week.....been so busy that I havent had the time or energy to bring this blog up to date on a regularl basis. never been so tired in this past few months.
Well lets see.....let's have this ultra summarized list of what has happened since I last blogged in.
Been going to 'work' at around 8.30 am each day. go to ward 75 check to see who will be our new victims @ hip fracture patients. if there aren't any then we troop down to the clinics to sit in with the different consultants and see some interesting and amusing interaction goin on as well as listen to hilarious banter between pt and doctor. After that it's lunch, a drop by Polar cakes to top up on afternoon tea
and then head back to ward 76 to get the bags and head down to diagnostic radiology to do wat we are paid to do. Search for digital x-ray images and burn them into cds. Realli stressful and irritating process this burning shit.
Yeah so been meeting new pple and doctors. of course there are the same irritating shitty pple who have garnered interesting new names. which they totally deserve. anybody wanna any of the interesting stuff i've experienced in the past week of work do contact me and be prepared to split your sides.
Went to the NUS open house on saturday. Fully confirmed my conviction that I will certainly kill myself or become a permanent resident at the institute of mental health if I have to study there. that place is more like an industrial park. I guess after seeing the uk universities you tend to expect more in terms of surroundings and pple. man....the pple there have got pri 1 english......"everything is cheaper" ...maybe a lower standard. deafness and blindness is chronic. Pedants and rude freaks are around. Bad planning and unsystematicness is definitely evident. man....I guess they just think they can be like that and get away with it coz everyone is goin there.
Well after that unpleasant experience went for dinner and drinks with von and janise. went to esplanade. DO NOT EAT AT COLOURS AT THE BAY!!! the food stinks the portion size is shit and the price is clearly daylight robbery.
Headed down to Harry's bar for drinks later on. Still love me vodka but I realize that it has a sort of sleep inducing effect on me. hmm....that's not very good coz that means that I wun be able to stay up late. darn....so then we chatted and crapped and spotted two love makers on the terrace garden. Man....get a room. I dun think i would want to interview them as stats for the hip fracture project.
Yeah..it was a good night.....
went for a hair cut on Sunday as well as driving and then church. still tired and all. Work starts again tml! so i guess it's night for now!!!!
Tuesday, March 09, 2004
At the end of another long and tiring day. Well at least today I am able to type this today. Yesterday was truly tiring man....had another night of insomnia. Didn't even sleep at all. So just managed to pull through the long FIRST DAY on the job with a two hour nap the afternoon before. Yeah so basically was the first day on the job. Turned up there at 7.am in the morning. Joint a dr. meeting at the conference hall at 75. MEt with the first disgusting sight of NUS 4th yr med students. They came in thongs, fashion threads and dyed long tresses. Man...they cld have passed as a bunch of pple just trooping into or outta a pub. Go figure. so went on rounds, sat in the clinic to listen to consultations and went to OT to watch surgery. First time i'm seeing major open surgery, previously only saw micro-invasive surgery at Prof chen. So it was kinda fascinating at all the raw work and man handling of shattered femurs.
Well today started off with a blast. Literally, darn ass of a dad spoilt my whole day by instigating a stupid quarrel. Why can't that old geezer just shut up and stop enforcing his pointless points on others? I think he gets hell of a kick out of getting everyone angry and spoiling their day. Selfish PRICK!
Well so today tried out the interviews that we were to carry out. Later on met with dr. Benjamin chua to discuss how to simplify the interview forms so that they could be more efficiently carried out. So we revamped it, made copies and tried it out on another pts. Short, succint, sweet. Good. Next we went and saw Dr. Png at diagnostic radiology where the main essence of our employment is abt. So basically we are to drag out digital x-rays from the records from now all the way to last august. Quite fun realli...running thru the maze of hallways and the best part is that we get to see red tape areas tat normal public are never able to see. so we did tat and then went home at 6.15pm. Much earlier than the 7.45pm last night. whee!
Yeah....now here's the idle chatter and ruminations bit. I'm a very frank and honest person and I dun like puttin on acts. What u see is wat you get. Yeah yeah u have to keep your emotions in control when your dealing with others. Man....that's unrealistic. A ploy to feed the egotrinsical needs of the human animal. but then again the common thought is that it is alright to sacrifice personal feelings so as to fulfil the frail needs of others and it appears even more profitable if by doing so u mite just be able to win some gd impression. guess that's just society. We are too weak by nature.
right then gonna call it a night! 
Sunday, March 07, 2004
Right....at the end of another long day.
woke up at 11.45am and went of to Sheraton towers for tea session for the Defence Merit Scholarship. Once again another scholarship tea sessions that does not seem to fit wat I plan to do. Anyways there are no scholarships for medicine and even for my alternative option for biomed science does not appear to have any importance or relevance to what the scholarship offers. It's basically for administrative and executive positions in MINDEF. BUt the tea session realli surpassed itself. 
The army sure does have lotsa money for lovely food!
Right next went to suntec sity to look around at the career fair over there. mainly interested in NUS. But rather flustered and tired so left after half and hour. the crowds were suffocating. Well....all I can say abt this experience is that NUS med fac does not appear to be interested in selling itself. Maybe coz it dun feel it needs to advertise itself. Actualli it doesnt need to. Mysteriously, thousands suddenly wanna do medicine. how 'touching'.
Right so now I'm reading through some journals regarding hip fractures gonna start on the job tml. Have to be there at 7. am. looks like I wun be sleeping. Actualli from reading these journals I'm getting more interested in this especially when they start considering the psychiatric aspect of dementia and it's effect on mortality and rehab. cool huh?
right back to work then.....nitez!
Saturday, March 06, 2004
Heyz alll!!!!!!!!!!
I'm becoming an insomniac. I have survived this long day with only two and a half hours of sleep. And it's 3.40 am and i'm still up.
Well so basically i only fell asleep at 6.am this morning and woke up at 8.30am. Amazing huh? Well anyway I had to go down to Kovan mrt to meet Janise and go down to SGH to meet up with Prof Howe regarding the clinical research and attachment thing that we are to start on the upcoming Monday.
So we went down to SGH where we met up with Prof Howe and Danny. Yes Danny is a doc. Kinda european I think though I have yet to realli discover his surname and ethnicity. So we ran thru basically wat the entire six weeks would be comprised of: Project work, interviews, clinical attachments, shadowing of med students, searching through X-rays. SO they brought us around to visit the wards and personnel whom we would be interacting with for the next six weeks. After that we were assigned our tasks for the weekend: Plan an interview for the geriatric, Statistic plan
Next me and Janise decided to pamper ourselves with a hearty lunch before we set out to research and brain storm on how to approach and settle the weekend tasks. Went to NYDC at Wheelock place...had a fiasco with beef lasagne, oogled at a rather confirmed gay guy who kept switching this gold band from the fourth finger of his left hand to the fourth on his right to throw us off track, How cunning. Well then we went to Library @ orchard to brainstorm. Turned out to be more of a laugh fest man! 
It's realli surprising the amt of crap two pple can gather. Met a pseud nurse. And an old pseudo pervert man who had supersonic hearing. Man...library outings have never been these eventful or fun.
After finishing, we set off to shop around for a pair of flatties in which we cld run around in. Went around TAKA and the headed to Paragon. Finally managed to find a nice pair and reasonably priced pair of flatties at POA ( Pple of Asia). We both have similar patterned shoes but whilst hers are gold mine is bronze. stylo. I realise that whenever I go for attachments and what not, I appear to spend alot shoes and stuff. Damn heart ache now lah. Haiyah...muz realli work hard to replenish.
HEaded to marche for some light tea then went home.
BAthed and nursed poor swollen and horridly blistered feet. Damn heels! Hope the new pair work or I will just scream. ANyway so complained to parents abt the 'typo errors' that appear in certain people's conditional offers to oxford. TElephone calls have never been that powerful. Then sat down to type out the interview....mid way through received a call from jojo. Wah...talked and crapped abt all sortsa stuff. MArathon man.. but quite fun lah. One of the more intellectual and mature conversations we have had in a long time. that's rather amazing. Started conversing at 9.45pm ended at 3.10 am. I dunno how long that is. Completed the interview sheet. I'm gonna just die from exhaustion.
Right...looks like it's sleepless in Hougang. Think i'll go watch 'Emergency' on discov channel.
Good Morning!
Friday, March 05, 2004
Aih.......Sighs......In an unbelieveably confused state of not knowing whether to feel happy or not. 
Apologies but the results cannot be revealed on line...sorry to burst your bubble. Anyways..now everything is still in the balance. Have to wait till April to see if everything goes alright. Darned it.....so close yet so far. Why oh why????
Well so basically today was a rather busy day...collected results, sent results to irish uni, and sent Administrative stuff to Manchester. went to church and had driving lessons. Driving lesson was rather good. HAd fun swinging round those right turns! YEah!
Okie...now I will sink back into further confusion, uncertainty and suspense....shit.....
Thursday, March 04, 2004
In around 14 hours the truth shall be known........
Well today was surprisingly another sleepy day. Woke up at 4pm. Well cldn realli help it coz I onli mangaged to fall asleep at 6.am. yes...cldn sleep at all man. I was just thinking and thinking abt everthing and all. Not really pleasant and calming on the nerves at all. Think i might just sleep till it's time to leave for school at around two. I dun even know if I can sleep tonight man...DARN! At this point in time it's realli like Come wat may.....
Well so had driving tonight at 8.50pm again. Instructor was Alfred lim from car 44. Man...that guy sure does have serious issues at home man. Typical Singaporean houselhold, kiasuism and all that he has to face everyday man. Managed to pass that bloody directional change thingy. YES!!!! 
I hate it.
Okie..gonna watch the Juror on channel i. Tml is judgement day. How ironic. 
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Man...woke up today to a very interesting sms...
It was a message from my form teacher Ms hor..."Hi results confirmed on Friday..." Well it never hurts to get additional confirmation on important matters yeah? Well after knowing for two weeks this notice seved to heighten the reality of it all. Aargh...insecurities....panic...infuriation, depression, disgust on recalling the stupid mistakes comitted and wondering how they might affect the marks and all....SHIT!!!!!!
Okie so today was a rather mundane and worrisome day tats all I can say realli. Read the papers, had lunch of veggie and salmon. rather nice. Read driving book infront of the telly. Somehow I feel tat I can't realli get myself down to do anything proper or decisive these days. It realli is a matter of things coming to a standstill until the results are out and the future is more of less clearer. At this point of time if i can meet the academic requirements of the conditional offer from a UK med school I will be overjoyed and satisfied already. 
Talking abt med school and everything brings to mind an issue that was debated in the straits times forun a couple of days ago. It was regarding the questionable and outright outrageous individuals who were being admitted into the NUS Med fac. Man...the medical system in Singapore is highly dependent on individuals who decided, and grudgingly, went to Med school reason being....
1. I couldnt get into law school
2. MY parents want me to be a doctor ( hot reason)
3. I got 4 As...if I dun go to med school it will be such a waste.
Yes...they are INDEED very WORTHY people.
Well the sad thing abt all this is that people who realli know wat being a doctor is abt and have that much comitment and passion to the profession are denied the opportunity. Why? Because their personal reasons and proclamations of their passion are deemed as fake and unbelieveable. Yeah so I guess the above reasons will be appplauded coz they are realli truthful huh? Well...the future physicians cultivated from such stock will be pple who are not ashamed to proclaim their absolute disgust at wat they are doing. cheers....
right then that's realli wat i have to say...two more days in counting....