{Underneath the Stars.

Thursday, September 30, 2004

7:55 AM

Today was another short, tiring day.
Went and saw the insurance agency regarding an insurance policy to insure my stuff
Sigh...kinda ex. Still have to think about it.
Am I really that careless?
Nah, I don't think so.
But then again.....

Today was a rainy day.

It rained all night las night

And it rained all morning

And it has rained all afternoon.

It will be raining all evening and night.

Sigh...didn't I tell you that when it starts raining it never stops?

Thankfully,

I love the rain.

It's messy but it actually has a warming effect to the cold

Winds we've had thus far.

Yippee....

Went straight home after that.

Very tired.

I think it must have been all this walking and

having to bear down the stong winds.

Terrible.

Today's lectures were good. I realised that these pple can actually make notes

that have substance.

Not like back in NUS where I had to print 58 slides

only to have the damn prof tell us that

6 slides HAVE relevant information.

GEEZ...talk about waste.

I do so HATE wasting paper

Guess wat....I was reading the band directory yesterday

and boy oh boy did I get a shock at wat

some people are doing now.

haha...in order to practise confidentiality all I can say

is that what someone told me about

another person is TOTALLY TRUE.

Frankly speaking I was truly disgusted with the latter person.

I spent half and hour last night ranting to my parents

about the atrocities of life and the people in it.

sigh...I think that the world will

truly be a different place when we get out into the world.

All those Pseudo Professionals.........

SCARY

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

10:21 AM

Heyz again. today was a sorta short long day. Had kinda lax and fun lectures, but some how I feel real tired. Maybe it's the heavy lunch I had this afternoon. the heaviest meal I've had since I arrived here. Jimmy chang's Buffet....looking at the food I ingested this afternoon, I realise why ang mohs think that asian food is weird when they actually do eat asian food IN asian countries. the food that was served was like fried chicken, and all those sorta fried tim sum thingies. Lotsa meat. But the good thing was that the chinese dishes that they prepared, for example, stir fried beef etc. did taste authentic. Certainly better than and chinese buffet we had back in glasgow the last time.

Bought another set of duvet covers. and a proper mug. £1.99 for the duvet @ quilt covers

and 75p for the mug.

The good thing about here is that if you go to those sorta charity shops

you'll probably be able to find excellent deals on quality products.

and the hunt for these elusive items is certainly very exciting.

doing good and having fun shopping at the same time.

you can't beat that.

today there was a computer course for the medics.

Kinda funny, coz the computer lab was located...guess where?

In the Zoology Museum.

so it was kinda cool doing emails and attachments etc. whilst being surrounded by ancient dinosaur fossils and stuffed animals.

talk about ambience.

this morning's first lecture was held in the

New King's building.

One of the oldest and newly refurbished buildings.

Man....it was as though we were having lectures in a cathedral.

Talk about high walls, long windows.

Wooden benches and a masive board in front of you.

Make no mistake though.

It's all fully wired up with all the necessary and even additional IT and

informatics stuff.

Managed to chat with frens and family back home!

YAY! time differences does not make that much of a difference.

feeling real tired now..but have to go revise work and all... sobz

I have to get the momentum right or I'll just die.

haha....

the difficult part is always knowing where to start.

and When to start.

And the time is NOW.

10:16 AM

You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly
everything and is constantly wondering about
what could have been.You're not happy with your
situation and usually blame yourself because of
the bad things that have happened.Cheer up.

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Depressed..

You're depressed. Really you are. And you
definitely have a reason. You often space out
and stare at things blankly, even if you're
normally hyper and energetic. This is because
nothing really seems important anymore. You
might just be sad right now, or you might be
manic depressive. Don't worry. Have some cocoa
and stuff'll be ok.

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Tuesday, September 28, 2004

11:44 AM

Hihi....today was rather okie. Had only two lectures. not too bad. I'm gonna get wise and start printing my notes off the net. haha..No more damage to my poor hands and fingers. Full concentration on the prof. Hopefully.

I just realised that being an Asian in an angmoh society can have debilitative effects on poor impressionable and delusional pple. I don't know if you guys noe this but I am the only singaporean in my batch. unfortunately, there are 2 other asian chinese, whom I feel rather disgusted to be related to by skin colour. One is, I quote, 'Hongkong Canada' the other 'Australian'. what I think....BULLSHIT. Listening to them talk makes my skin crawl. Literally. Geez...don't they get it? It doesn't matter how many 'Wassup's and 'Man' they use. They still look like GEEKY chinese. and...not American as they wish to think themselves to be. STUPID. and they are awfully rude too, they don't seem to greet pple whom they are aquainted with. and the funniest and best part, although they hang out with each other during lesson time, they treat each other like SHIT. which is probably what they are anyway. Guys out there, DO NOT SHAVE YOUR HEAD AND LEAVE FUZZ GROWING OUT OF IT. It's ridonculous (to quote School of Rock which me and my flat mates caught the other day). And if that hairstyle together with little metal spectacle frames doesn't spell GEEK or PRICK, I don't know what does. Geez...

For my benefit and health I have chosen to ignore them and not acknowledge them when I see them. Even when they are sitting directly across me in the bus. For the record, they don't say hi either. Thank goodness. :)

Today was in town again. bank account finally open. Should pave the way for easier monetary affairs. Except for my darn mobile phone account that can't be opened till I have a bank statement. Which will probably be sent out in a couple of days time, and then i can gleefully Shove it in that Obnoxious handphone salesman's face. Bought a couple of pillows! YAY! It was a legit reason why I had to get them, my neck was getting twisted and sore on the pathetic pillow that came with the duvet pack.

I just realised that I am still able to access my NUS stuff. probably rather useful at this point in time. probably the only time when NUS has actually been useful. HAHa...not too that great an extent anyway. but well...must fully utilise the $2500 I gave them. Just saved a whole lot of biochemistry stuff. hope to find some nuggets of gold within them.

Tomorrow will be a test of mental and physical strength. I'm gonna sprint from the zoology building that is about half a mile to the Mac Robert's building at king's college in 5 minutes. haha. Look guys, leg muscle. Stamina. haha. I'm gonna go home and tan myself on the beach.

I just just just discovered e-messenger from the girl sitting next to me. It allows me to chat with you guys on MSN thru the internet! YES! YES! YES! Now...I just have to figure out this time zone thingy. This is super. though no one is online now. Haha....See you guys online soon!

Monday, September 27, 2004

9:21 AM

Hi everyone! Look who's back? It's me! your Worst nightmare!
haha...to me my worst nightmare would have to be the administration.
I could have been online like last week, but due to all these administrative befuddledness
I could only get myself registered for the computers today.
so here I am giving a slight run through on what has happened so far.

20th September: touch down in Aberdeen dyce airport at 1030 local time

Went to Hillhead Halls of Residence. Home for the rest of the year.

checked into room 90B Burnett House.

Strucked down by sudden incomprehensible sadness due to missing friends

and the inability to start a line for broad band in my room

Cried myself to sleep.

sigh....

21st September: Went to look around campus and search out the places that

I would be studying for the rest of the term.

Discovered the unbeknownst 'JOY' of walking.

Went into town

Discovered the joy of cheap stationery and novels

Bought paper.

walked around town.

nice shops.

22nd September: Administrative reception starts
WELCOME TO MEDICINE
REGISTRATION
delayed registration for me since I had to fill in some kinda disclosure
form that had not been sent to me prior my arrival.
SHIT
Went home angry.
bought a bottle of VODKA,
went home and drank with flat mates
slept.
23rd September: Computer Registration
Medical Registration with local GP
Delayed computer registration due to FUCKING disclosure form.
not on system.
Went to registry and registered myself.
went for medical registration.
Paid 20 pounds @ $60 for course pack. blimey
went thru a series of medical checks culminating in the FINAL horror
.......
Getting blood drawn from you by YOUR 5th Year senior
Damn shithead.
He obviously couldn't feel for the vein and ended up sticking a needle
in the wrong arm, causing minor bleedout
and a freaking stingy sensation for the rest of the day.
Site of entry would remain blue-black for the rest of the week.
.......................................
What a fine display of comaraderie amongst the medical faculty
the juniors will 'WILLINGLY' sacrifice themselves
as guinea pigs for their stupid seniors.
GEEZ.............

Regent EVEning.
Signed up and joined Medical Society of Aberdeen
and British Medical Association.
Miled around aimlessly like a stupid lost sheep
before being handed a letter on behalf of my regent
to say that he couldn't come as he was at a
conference in New York.
Sheesh....
(Regent: Member of the medical staff at the hospital or academic staff at the university
in charge of your welfare.
He/She will receive your academic reports and meet with you from time to time.
2-3 students to 1 regent.
in short: our guardian.)

24th September:finally got my student ID card. Tried to get laptop configured
but apparently the excellence of IBM laptops
was just too difficult for the technicians to pick apart
Thus, no chatting online for now.
Sigh...
Went into town again.
took busrides around.
Went past the seaside and airport.
Very nice. Went into town. Bought a leather jacket.walked around town again. went back home.went to LiDL's @ NTUC. Cheap food there. bought lotsa nice stuff.Shopping list:SpaghettiSauceToilet paperchocsdrinksgloveswashing liquid.etc.

25th september: Outing to Crathes Castle

Beautiful

Lovely gardens and castle grounds.

Loved the scenery of the lolling countryside on the 45 minutes

busride out of Aberdeen

Loved the fresh sweet air

truly fairytale.

I want to live in a castle

26th September: went to town again.

Walked around

Got bored.

Went home.

27th September: School starts.

First lect: How to pass Phase 1 of the MBChB program(1hr)

private study for 1 hour

2nd Lecture: Tissues and Organs (1hr)

lunch break for 1 hour

3rd lecture: Tissues and Organs (1hr)

private study for 1 hour

4th lecture: Cells and molecules (1 hr )

went back

fiddlinf with now available internet access on campus facility

Yay.

for the record: 25th and 26th september. had flat party. Had dun playing card games with

flate mates and block mates

haha....

they all profess that card games are my calling

not medicine...

hmm.....

Will be back soon if anything interesting happens

or if I have enough time

Will end with humbling quotes from the associate dean in his Welcome speech

'Medicine is not hard. If it were difficult I wouldn't be here. And looking at you pple you wouldn't be here too'

'All of you are going to be in charge of my health when I am old. Looking at you

I think to myself

'Oh God.' ''

Saturday, September 18, 2004

6:48 AM

So with all's said and done, life as I've known for the past eighteen years will come to a postponement come tommorow night. Lotsa stuff has happened in the past few days and no doubt lotsa stuff has yet to come in the ensuing nine months.

I've learnt a lot about pple.

Particularly people whom I have known for years and have failed to see their true colours.

Failure I suppose on my side.

But then again, Fare ye well.

The next time I have to deal with someone like you....

I will be well prepared.

You are the snake that slithers through gardens of peaceful friendship

and threatens the sanctity of a true friends

because of your own insecurities,

jealousy,

and pride.

you are conniving.

you are vindictive.

you are the weaver of lies and disillusions.

and yet...

to me you are pitiful.

perhaps you are trying to gain something which you have never experienced

because you have built a wall around you

based on delusions and sorrow

and it has prevented you from seeing the truth about yourself

you question and criticise others

about the faults that are mirrored in yourself

But I guess that is the trait of everyone:

to dislike the faults in others

for they are the faults we see in ourselves.

SO to all who I care for and to all who

have cared for me

Adieu, Et Dieu de salut bénissent

Farewell, Take care and God Bless

~The Muse~

Sunday, September 12, 2004

10:26 PM

Stress....

StreSs!

StreSSssss.......

STRESSED.

mANY wAYs tO gET strESSED.

MaNY rEASons FOR being STRESSED.

sigh....

even if the reason is beneficial to you.

the frail HUMAN

mind, body AND soul

so I'm final going away. those of you who hate me, I join you in my hoorays. those of you who like me, thanks. those of you who are oblivious and couldn't care less, come join me for a drink. I suppose you guys may be the only pple who can stand my erratic moods these days without getting hurt or further angered. Spent a bundle in the past few days. sigh. Going away is difficult for the paranoid, they imagine that everything around them is essential for their survival. And that all rations will dessipate within 24 hours on arrival at destination. Sigh. well, then if you don't hear from me again. Don't worry. Don't rejoice. As Arnie says ...

I WILL BE BACK