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I dislike....hypocrites, complainers, back stabbers, irresponsible twits, rude, selfish beings and most of all actors. Despite this personal abhorrence for such pple I am surrounded by them. But the most amazing thing abt it, is that I actually bother to interact with them on a matter of personal choice. Strange isn't it. ... hmm...most disturbing.
I suppose it is rather difficult to distance yourself from the possibility of having to interact with such pple partly because this urban jungle with its high concentrations of human life, makes it quite impossible to escape. And...i suppose more importantly, the above mentioned traits are more or less occuring at high frequencies amongst lotsa pple. that stinks.
Watching documentaries on nature, other civilisations and different regions in the world do indeed evoke extreme feelings of envy. It would be nice to escape the hustle and bustle of city life and mindless human interaction for a day. But... sadly, that is a rather impossible feat to achieve here. Trying to relax in artificially landscaped areas of supposed nature is often near impossible because u will more likely then not be disturbed by the wild shrieks from a gluttural human source or the latest excavation plan to create more land. Finding a truly remote spot or attempting to relax in open spaces at twilight are activities that are not advisable because ur mind will go into overdrive wondering whether the last rustle of leaves and sigh of the wind u heard was that or the possible heavy breathing of someone or something else lurking in the shadows. hmm...exageration? perhaps...but then again maybe not. with the media zealously pounding images of murder and terrosism into our minds and the overly protective environment we live in, it is difficult to relax and enjoy the simple pleasures in life in peace. Crikey, seeing a 'suspicious' object (eg. bag, teddy bar, plastic bag) in the MRT justifies the dialling of 999. I wonder how the true emergency cases get past the jammed police lines.
With this gradual decrease in the number of sources from which we can derive satisfaction of our being as well as reduced outlets for stress and boredom it seems we have to once again turn to the human companion. This dependency on human relationships might in fact expose us as individuals to exploitation. I've realised that my expectations of a person have decreased greatly throughout the years and the company i'm in these days reflects this disturbing trend. I seem to be accepting deceitful and disturbing individuals with character traits I do not admire. And well...I seem to be dealt bad deals each time. And i think the more disturbing thing would be that I accept it and let myself be overrun by these nuisances. hmm...it's either i'm becoming some kinda saint or i'm losing the fight against evil.
Well then....guess I can't realli do much abt pple coz they'll always be like that. So I guess I'll just drift back into dream time. Doesn't realli matter because I believe that these people will be paid back for their sins one by one. Think I shall go back to writing. Have lined up a couple of projects to be done. hmm...hope to accomplish them. Do seriously hope that these projects will help me to stay away from the cycle of exploitation and irritation by having to go interact with irritants.
hmm......
Cheers....